Britain's Prince Harry has described how returning from his final tour of Afghanistan triggered an “unravelling” but “no-one around me really could help”.
Harry, speaking in his new Heart of Invictus docuseries on Netflix, said he did not have a “support structure” to help him deal with his mental health struggles, which related back to the trauma of losing his mother Diana, Princess of Wales.
Harry, whose troubled relationship with the royal family has long been documented, said the impact of Diana’s death when he was 12 was never discussed and he finally sought therapy after “lying on the floor in the foetal position”.
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The five-part documentary, which was launched in the UK at 8am on Wednesday, follows a group of former military servicemen and women on their road to the paralympic-style sporting competition Invictus, which Harry set up in 2014 for injured and sick military personnel and veterans.
In the second episode, entitled Invisible Injuries, Harry tells how he suppressed the trauma of losing his mother in a car crash – the 26th anniversary of which is on Thursday – but his return to the UK from his second frontline tour to Afghanistan in 2012 brought it all back.
“I can only speak from my personal experience, my tour of Afghanistan in 2012, flying Apaches,” he said.
“Somewhere after that, there was an unravelling.
“The trigger to me was actually returning from Afghanistan. But the stuff that was coming up was from the age of, from 1997, from the age of 12.
“Losing my mom at such a young age, the trauma that I had, I was never really aware of.
“It was never discussed. I didn’t really talk about it and I suppressed it like most youngsters would have done, but then when it all came fizzing out, I was bouncing off the walls. I was like ‘what is going on here? I’m now feeling everything as opposed to being numb’.
He added: “The biggest struggle for me was … no-one around me really could help.
“I didn’t have that support structure, that network or that expert advice to identify what was actually going on with me.
“Unfortunately, like most of us, the first time you really consider therapy is when you’re lying on the floor in the foetal position, probably wishing that you’d dealt with some of the stuff previously, and that’s what I really want to change.”
Harry, meanwhile, made a surprise appearance at a special US preview screening of the new five-part show in California, which has been more than two years in the making.
He emerged to introduce it, telling the audience about the sacrifices that veterans and their families make while serving their country.
“You guys get to watch it tonight – or at least two episodes – to whet the appetite for the rest of it,” Harry was seen saying in a video circulated on social media.
In the first 45-minute episode, Harry discusses how he never wanted to serve in the armed forces as a father.
Harry, who has two children Prince Archie and Princess Lilibet, is chatting during a hike in California with his friends, former Invictus competitors JJ Chalmers and David Wiseman, and says: “I’ve always had myself down as being the dad that I could never be serving while having kids. And you both did, right?
“It’s never the individual signing up – it’s the whole family signing up.”
Interviewed sitting in a chair facing the camera, Harry is asked to describe what he does.
He replies: “What do I do? Er… on any given day, I’m a dad of two under-three-year-olds.
“I’ve got a couple of dogs. (I’m) A husband. I’m founding patron of Invictus Games Foundation.
“There’s lots of hats that one wears, but I believe today is all about Invictus.”
Harry first appears in behind-the-scenes footage from November 2021 when the couple attended the Salute to Freedom gala honouring military veterans in New York.
Harry confides in his wife about his nerves as they walk hand in hand along a red carpet into the event, saying: “We haven’t done this in a while.”
Meghan, dressed in a red Carolina Herrera gown, replies: “I know.”
Harry adds: “My heart … I’m like (making a noise like a rapid heart beat) – I’m nervous.”
Harry is shown anxiously pacing around a room as he waits to take to the stage.
Harry is listed in the credits as an executive producer of the series, which was made in association with Harry and Meghan’s Archewell Productions.
It is directed by Orlando von Einsiedel and produced by Joanna Natasegara, who worked together on the Oscar-winning short The White Helmets.
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Heart of Invictus forms part of Harry and Meghan's multimillion-pound deal with Netflix – with their main output so far being last year’s controversial Harry & Meghan documentary.
The six-part series last December saw the duke and duchess shed light on their troubled life within the royal family and accuse Kensington Palace of lying at the Megxit summit to protect Harry’s brother William, and father Charles, now King.
Meanwhile, the couple’s other lucrative media deal – with Spotify – ended in June after one season of Meghan’s podcast Archetypes.
Heart of Invictus has been released in the run-up to next month’s Invictus Games which begins in Dusseldorf on September 9, with Harry set to travel to Germany for the start of the tournament, and Meghan joining later.
